Judge

I may know a lot of people and many would probably know me. But the truth is, i have only have a handful of close friends. It's because i cherish those who really care and love me. If i be friend someone, i would like to be friend with them for the rest of my lifetime. But if the person show signs of not doing the same for me, i would probably label them as allies.

Us humans love to judge others. We human also judge those who we didn't even know. It's human nature. I'm also guilty. I admit that. But im not the type of person who will label another before knowing them. I will not accuse another person of being a bitch or whatsoever before knowing them. It's because, if you want to judge another person, you have to see their true colours. You have to see the real person inside the shell.

Most of the people that i know love to judge me harshly and label me negatively before even knowing the real me. i use to care and become sad when facing those situations but no more. Unlike them, i have dignity and i admit all of my flaws and weaknesses. Those who judge people harshly and thinks that they are superior than others are the ones who could not admit their flaws and would never accept the fact that they are not as perfect as they want themselves to be.

You have to evaluate yourselves before you could evaluate others. Look into the mirror. See the true you before you could see the truths in others.

Truth

the truth is difficult to understand

Perspective

It's a never ending story.

People come and go in my life.

They never stay.

Im jinx.

Some enjoy my company,

but too ashamed to admit

that they're friends with me.

Because they are so cool

They are the best

and all their friends hate me

Then they said

"it's all your fault

you should not posted them"

the person does not want

people to know that he or she

is hanging out with me

I'm an embarassment.

therefore, the person feels

the rights to be mad at me

you should tell me earlier

not to post 'them' on the net

'they' are harmless to me

therefore, i decided

to not associate myself

at all with that person.

self centered

self-absorb

fill with pride.

to them perfects

i have no dignity

no pride

i'm a worthless tool

to make you popular

and known.

just another shitwreck

to take advantage off.

but no more

i am aiman asraf

i used to entertain people's craps

i will no longer falls into your traps.

kapeeesh!

Precious

A Rainbow at Sunset & a natural Palette, originally uploaded by Monday Morning Photography.

 The sun shines but the emptiness remains

I will stand by the side and watch your happiness radiates like sunshine. Hoping that your halo could mend my swollen heart. I will be the person who's always in the background of your life just to make an appearance throughout your lifetime. I will forever be your friend but never could be 'The One'. I will always be there for you through thick and thin although I know you will never do the same. I used to cry when I forced myself to accept the fact that you do not feel the same way as I do. Shed my tears when I know that I could not have you. But now it's different. I cry because the feeling that I had for you is slowly disappearing. Draining out from my heart and soul like water. Drop by drop. Those feelings will slowly disappear to nothingness. Now there's a large empty space in my heart. Your images, the warmness of your smile, the sound of your voice, the electric feeling that I feel every time our skin collides and the sincerity of your eyes will I cherish. I hope those moments will remain as memories locked in my mind box because that's how precious you are to me.

Age Of Innocence

I used to be a child,

Who's mind was beautiful and pure,

I used to be a child,

Who was quite and demure.

I am no longer a child,

 Who's world was fill with innocence,

I am no longer a child,

Who would not take vengeance.

For I'm not a child,

Who you can trick, lie and fool,

For I'm not a child,

Because with you I can be cruel.

-AimanAsraf©

January 15th 2010

ENTER the Storm!, a timelapse short., originally uploaded by n+s.

It was a boring day. I spent my day listening to sad songs. I am in a state of depression right now. My days are filled with loneliness and despair. I sleep more often than I usually do. I sleep because I want to forget and not think of how pathetic the situation that I'm currently in. But every time I sleeps, I dream. Those dreams are vivid and surreal. I can't differentiate dreams and reality nowadays. Every time I wake up I feel this pain in my chest. My heart aches and I can feel the pain jabbing it like needles. I don't cry on the outside anymore. Sometimes I do cry. I cry only when my heart could no longer bear the pain. After each tearful moment, I feel empty. Emotionless. I am an emotional trainwreck. But what can I do? Life is not always on your side. Everyone that I love are starting to leave me. Fading to nothingness. Like the sun rays hidden by dark clouds of rain, I can only wish for sunny days. But at the moment I sense that there's a storm brewing and it would definitely turns out badly.

Last Year

I miss this. After school fun. Shopping for choir outfit.